A couple mornings ago I read my devotion from Proverbs 31 ministries. It was very fitting as it was about letting go of our fears to God for our children and answering the question will you give me your son? It seems so easy to say with my mouth yes Lord here take my son but so hard to do with my heart and truly trust God. This didn't start today either. During pregnancy it was the fear of getting to the second trimester, I am spotting is everything ok, I fell down did I hurt him, we can't see facial features does he have downs, I don't feel him kicking is he ok, will I make it past the risky time or deliver preterm (haha funny after going past my due date), will I ever have this baby, will we survive labor and delivery, can I really get this baby out, etc, etc, etc. You get the picture I can come up with fears for every step of the way and that was before he was born. Now there are different fears, is he gaining weight (yes in two weeks over a pound), is my milk supply ok, what if I drop him or mess up as a parent, is he thinking he didn't sign up for the inexperienced parents he got, will we raise him in The Lord, etc, etc, etc. As I have focused on this devotional throughout the week, I've realized that I can fixate on these fears or I can wake up each morning and pray to turn him over to God. This has to be a daily decision right now to trust that He already knows the plans he has for Ethan. This is my prayer as we start this adventure:
Lord, take our child and use him. Help us to focus on you and trust you in everything. Calm these fears with your truths and guide us in the process. Lord, we pray that he know you at a young age and live his life for you. We pray that he impact the world for You and your kingdom. Amen.
Trust in The Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5-6
For I know the plans I have for you, "declares The Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11
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